Reading some of these last posts made me feel better about my own situation. I'm not exactly unhappy, on the contrary, life is really good. But there are a couple of things I'd just like to get out of my system, and some of them are too touchy to bring up with my real life friends as those things concern them one way or another... so I'm just going to selfishly use this space to vent anonymously for a bit and give myself a good ol' shot of self-humiliation while I'm at it!
Within the last week, two of my single girlfriends hooked up with guys. One of those guys being an ex-crush of mine which makes the situation all the weirder, although I
am over him.
My roomie is frantically busy planning her wedding.
Add a huge amount of stress due to my juggling a million balls at once right now with several jobs, learning two new languages and planning to emigrate,
a little dose of PMS and... voilá! I feel bad about my lovey dovey friends and I know I should be
happy for them which makes me feel
bad about
feeling bad.
The only guy I am interested in lives 500 miles away and is too damn good for me, apart from the fact that he has probably forgotten I exist and I might not even see him again ever due to the above mentioned emigration, and if I should meet him again he's probably hooked up with someone else by then because he is just that awesome.
My internet connection still sucks and now my eMac has made it a habit to crash thus shattering my faith in Apple and making me bitter and hateful towards all computers and that which they represent.
...But apart from that, I'm doing great.
