Yeah, that sux. I just got over a 4-day thing, thankfully. But, I had to work, and school, and sing 2 times, and...well, it's tough. Anyway, that really is not cool...it's so sad sometimes. Some days just seem like I should try and see the world differently, like today. Today was a horrible day, and drerry, and it may be the rain talkin' but I think sometimes everything would be better if I wasn't around to complicate things. I mean, for example, I haven't spent a decent hour with my heart, my soul, my love, and all of the rest she entails in like 2 weeks! I see her at school for 2 periods, less than an hour, and she doesn't even talk to me when she gets a chance. And when she does, she has nothing to say. And then, I ask her on my only day off from work, today, if she wanted to hang out, but she blew me off for her friends. She asked me what I wanted to do, and I didnt care and told her so, and she said let's go shopping, because it cheers both of us up. And I was fine, and she was fine, and she got all mad because I didn't want to go to my favorite stores and she wanted to go home. Then, she asks if I wanna go out to eat with my friends and then go to a movie, and I say I dont care, whatever you want, and she flips out and says dont even bother. So she goes, with this guy who was her MAJOR crush before we go out, and they went with another couple, and he was holding her hand and hugging her and they even kissed. She said she didn't initiate it or anything and it was only a small kiss, but it pist me off. And I just lived with it. So then, today, she and I were supposed to hang out at a friends house and she can't go because he cancels, so I ask if she wants to do anything else, and I say it's up to you, and she asks to come over and then as I was building up hope she says "oh yeah, I just remembered my mom told me I cant go out". It wasnt even 2 minutes ago, and I ask if she was busy tomorrow, and she says no, and I say maybe I can get off work, and she says no, I don't feel like seein you tomorrow, and turns off her cell phone. I am just so aggravated and I need to vent, sorry. I dont mean to do this to you guys but I really am so Frustrated! What does she want from me? She tells me she still loves me. She acts nice and sweet, I do what she wants and what she tells me and I still can't see her. I feel so unappreciated. I mean, do you think she's tryin to tell me somethin, cuz I really couldnt take that right now, I mean, would everyone be better off without me...I wonder...I really do...
Sincerely, and hopefully not finally
Never judge a person unless you walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you talk about them, you'll be a mile away AND you'll have their shoes!