How's your life atm?

[Shadreorn]

Drama is just a part of life. Considering that a cross sectional sample of furries would reveal that young people, mainly college students and high school students, comprise more than a simple majority of furries, it's really no surprise.

[Pravus]

La vie est tres drole, ouais? Mais, je n'en suis pas.

[Redcrow]

This is pretty timely, as I'm heading up to Rainfurrest 2008 up in Seattle tomorrow.

I want to see the art, maybe buy something unique, and attend events. I am hoping to learn something for my own drawing attempts, and I know that at the very least I'll get some inspiration. This con is small, as was Conifur 2005 was. All of the artists I talked to were friendly and interesting, and the featured guests were accessible and friendly as well(Uncle Kage and 2 the Ranting Gryphon).

I am going up to this con without any social expectations. Any group of people: an ethnic group, a religious congregation, a fandom, whatever; will have people of varying temperment and character. That being so, one may encounter asshats and s#1t-heels, or one could meet some really nice people.

I like web comix and graphic novels, especially furry and manga. I'm not ashamed of this, especially since I have many unrelated interests. I wish I had time and energy to have my own comics website which I could update at least once a week, but I haven't achieved that level of determination yet.

I often take my sketch book to work for breaks and lunch. I don't try to show it off, and I don't try to hide it either. But when somebody wants to look, I get positive reactions of my work. I may never go anywhere with my work, but it has been personally enriching.

Okay: Rambling Mode OFF.

[Pravus]

....I say, do what you all want. If you want it, you should take it.

[Hungrywolf]

It should be more like...

If you want something, don't ask for it, get it yourself.


I wonder sometimes if I'll ever break these chains. I know I can handle a lot, and at times it seems I handle too much. I could blame the people who thrust all this weight on me, or I could easily blame myself for the position I put myself in. Like take what's happening right now, or tomorrow/today. My father is heading to jail for 3 days to start his probation for drunk driving. And again I'm somehow forced to bare a heavy burden. Take an unwanted responsibility. Handle everything on top of everything else I was doing, while dealing with my own problems. It's hard, it's tiring, and at the end of the day annoying. My sister in the meanwhile has it so easy. She's required to do nothing, besides attend to her own life. Which is going perfectly well I may add. Yet she complains, is at times arrogant and loud, and bosses me around. Being here does me no good. I just want to leave and start a new someplace else. It feels like I've been here too long, and might end up here forever.

I just want freedom. And yeah I shouldn't ask for it. I should just get it. But I can't.

[Shadreorn]

I admire you for being in control as long as you have.

[ShannC]

I had been recommended medication by doctors and therapists periodically over the years. I had resisted, because I wanted to find a "natural cure".

The "natural cure" part is a waste of time. You get there by yourself but it costs years of shit. Take my hilarious doings for instance. It's like a joke. So I screw up studies and old exams pile up. Through years I took on social work, helping this kid get a job and go through minimal required education. I started working with charity, and all this because I was paranoid that I might in fact suck big time. It took a while but honestly, why not go to the doctor straight away instead of taking 4 years to concoct your own house cure? It's manly to deal with your own self-esteem issues. Manly as in stubborn and stupid.

Anyways, thank you Redcrow for trying to help. I read your comic and it does give me some hope for the future. I've been working out alot more than usual recently, and it's helping me sleep simply because I'm too tired to think about things. I've tried therapy in the past, but it didn't do much for me. I'm a pyschology major and I'm aware of the chain of effect in most types of therapy and medications. I think perhaps knowing how they work has somehow made them far less potent.

Maybe you should go in cognitive therapy? Cut the childhood bullshit and establish time-tables, courses of action etc. I hear it's even effective on the very cynical.

I think part of the problem with the fandom, not so much internally, but how it's viewed, is that it's populated by people who couldn't otherwise be included in any other group. It's almost too accepting, I agree, but for the most part I think that's a positive quality.

but it sucks having to deal with idiots. I think needy, clingy people who can't take anything lightly are the type who can kill the party regardless which party. What partly determines if somebody is an alright fellow for me is whether I can mock them and their stupid interests, kinks, etc. Meaning, I'd certainly tease Suburb for buying a dogsuit if I felt like, because I'm confident he's a cool guy who can take it. I however have no patience for people who demand you walk on eggshells around them.
I think furry is entertaining but also stupid, childish, superficial and weird. Although, I'm convinced that even that can be worn with dignity, in which case it doesn't really matter.

I'm not bad, I have compassion for most people but I prefer not wasting it on people who are so broken they are unable to look outside their own bubble, or completely disregard common sense/courtesy.

[Paul Escobar]

And all engineering wondering sadly becomes irrelevant. He's signed up as infantry

How does that work out, skill-learning-wise? And more to the point, are you OK with it?

[Pravus]

.... .....

[Bloodied Fox]

And all engineering wondering sadly becomes irrelevant. He's signed up as infantry

How does that work out, skill-learning-wise? And more to the point, are you OK with it?

Skills wise I'm really not sure where it fits. I suppose generally being in the army provides transferable personal skills and help someone grow as a person, but I don't think it specifically provides anything that leads into a trade. I think at the end of the day he wanted out of his current job and this seemed the easiest way

As for where I stand, well, I can't say I'm overjoyed about him not being a specialist, given that it puts him on the front line, but as a whole I've gotten used to the idea of him being in the army and the odds are in his favour. The fact that he's so happy about the whole thing makes me feel better about it too. In the end it's his choice and I feel that I should be supportive.

[Paul Escobar]

That's good to hear, all things considered. Best of luck to him and you.

Personally, I'm allergic to the military...

[Pravus]

Not after Boys state...no no no...

[PortableNuke]

Skills wise I'm really not sure where it fits. I suppose generally being in the army provides transferable personal skills and help someone grow as a person...

He might get a management skills bullet point for his resume if he makes it to the NCO ranks. Infantry will be fun, it will be a lot of work, but in the end it's where the action is.

[Bloodied Fox]

That's what I'm afraid of...

[Hungrywolf]

I need a job. Quickly.

[Hungrywolf]

Sorry for double post.

But anyone want to talk to an on the edge of a major breakdown person. I give you candy, plz...

PM or whatever message thing you have... I just want someone to talk to now.

[ShannC]

Ok something happened. We had an assignment to write the end of a russian children's story. I finished quickly, connected different elements and tied up some ends with a sugary but moral ending. Didn't think much about it until yesterday when I got it back with a million grammatical errors. It appears my teacher really liked it though and she recapped it in front of the class!
This is really weird and unless you know her, you don't understand. She's old school and she never gives credit. Everybody does their homework to her classes first and she reacts to every minor detail. The jury is still out on whether she was the ex-KGB agent(We know there is one on the slavic institution)

Well, I was all giddy. It appears that I fuck up sentence structure, cases and the use of definate-indefinate verbs, but I can apparently write russian children's stories really well.

[Hungrywolf]

Yeah the same thing sorta happened to me in my writing class.

Oh and, I lied when I said I don't care about what happened. I do. At times when I'm alone. I really do care.

[Pravus]

My math is so weird...

[Shadreorn]

Disorganized professors are the bane of my existence. AND NOW I TRAVEL TO CHICAGO FOR THE WEEKEND.