I am down and nothing funny is happening to me.
I am lying. Everything that has to do with me has to do with funny, it's just the way things happen for some reason. But none of that is any of the sort of thing that I want to put into what my comic has turned into. It may not look like it, but I take this thing at least half-way seriously.
I used to think that being happy made me stop being funny, but I've realized that I was wrong. I've told some of my best jokes during extatic periods of my life. I'm certainly not happy right now, and I've got the worst update schedule of the year that I've been doing this. Even before I started putting them on the internet I had a better schedule than I do now.
So what is my problem? I am living exactly the same life that I was a year ago. Maybe that is the problem. I'm not the person that I was a year ago, I've gone through lots of changes, and most of them have been for the better. Since then I've graduated from high school, I've made new friends and lost old ones. I've dipped my toes into the waters of social activism. I've done a fair amount of things.
I think that I've figured out where my inspiration has gone. God Damn It is the name of my comic. That is an angry phrase, god damn it. My comic is fueled by anger. I think back to my favorite strips and I realize that most of the one that I actually wrote are about things that make me furious. What makes me mad now? Nothing, really. At least not anything that would be appropriate for my comic. At least nothing that makes me think funny thoughts.
Right now I am always either happy or sad. Happiness leads to gloating, saddness leads to more saddness. I don't want my comic to turn into me jerking off all over myself about how great I am, and I don't want it to be a forum where I only talk about how great it would be to go to sleep forever.
The only things that have angered me at all recently are all of the things that I don't want my comic to be about. I've had a number of computer problems that have nearly driven me over the edge, I don't want to be a nerd comic. I frequent a Lord of the Rings forum (and if I may be modest for a moment, it's the best one on the internet) and people there make me mad a lot. Do you want to hear about how I made Elrian look stupid that one time? Neither do I.
So there you have it, I need to become angry at the world.
Maybe I should just start paying attention.