How to get by without cynicism or suicide:EdBecerra wrote:*shrugs*shyal_malkes wrote:and Ed, I think it's just the bitterness I disagree with, are you into anything else these days that helps with life? I was getting bitter and depressed when I discovered webcomics. I still get a little bitter and sometimes depressed but not as much anynore.
I've watched people die on the Berlin wall while I was LEGALLY prevented from helping them escape or trying to save their lives.
I lost my first love to a collection of idiots who thought that forcing me into a political marriage was more important than my having fallen in love.
I watched my mother wither away from pancreatic cancer, and my second lover die of synovial cell sarcoma.
I'm cynical, bitter and misanthropic. It's that, or put a gun to my head out of despair. And I promised Aili I would not do that. One of the last promises I made to her.
No excuses, just explanations. I won't break my promise to her, and a daily dose of cynical misanthropy helps me get through the day without picking up that pistol and taking a .45 caliber pain reliever.
The regulations on the Berlin wall prevented international incedents that could have started WW3. By preventing you from saving those people, they were saving lives.
The bastards who chased your love away were bastards, but it happened years ago. Time to move on. Plenty more fish in the sea.
People die from disease all of the time. It's to be expected. Move on. Get a new lover, and stop greiving for your mother. I doubt either of them would have wanted you to justify this sort of emo thing by them.
