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I was sitting here at my computer trying to think of what to do. I happened to come to your site to see the Sunday comic. Having nothing else to do I decided to reread the later storylines. I was fine and then I reached the part where Twap decides she's no good and she wants to leave the world behind. I'd forgotten about this part. I held everything in till I reached the comic on April 22, 2001. I was startled to see that I have never fully read into it. I realize now what she was thinking. For the past month I've been extremely down. I seem to have lost any will to do anything. I would often cry myself to sleep. Of course I never told anyone. My friends at school have noticed the change in me. I wrote a letter to my friend Merri and told her not to show it to anyone. She did. She showed the school conselor who brought in a psychologist to talk to me. They intend to show the note to my mom. This happened on Thursday. I haven't talked to anyone. This has made everyone even more worried. I'm not sure what to do. I'm still angry that she went behind my back after swearing to me that she wouldn't show anyone. I don't know how I feel. When I saw that one comic my reaction was to write it down. It's on my computer right now so I can keep looking back on it. Now the whole reason I'm writing this: I want to say thank you. I'm going to try to swallow my pride and maybe talk more about how I feel. Maybe (it hasn't happened yet) I'll be able to realize why I am on this planet in this form. I'd like to thank you Gloria for being one of the first to introduce to my a different way of creativity. And now for helping my realize that I do need to reach out to someone whoever it maybe. Originally I was going to write this in an e-mail and send it, but I have decided to post it here because maybe someone else knows how I feel. Anyway...<P>"May the wind under your wings bear you where the sun sails and the moon walks."<P>------------------
NiKkI tHe SuPeRbUnNy
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*cries and hugs everybody on the board who has ever been depressed* <P>Oh gosh, Niquee, I'm so glad that you've found even the smallest amount of comfort from something I've written, because, gosh, if I can help even one person through this comic, then it's worth every second I've spent on it. However, I'd like to say, that, it's not really me that you have to thank. The only reason I can draw is because God gave me the talent, and the only reason I can put together the stories is because He gave me the talent. And, really... the whole suicide storyline was based on what was really going on in my life and in my heart. Believe, me, all of you, I KNOW how you feel. And I care. I'm crying as I write this, because I pray that God will help you through it. Believe, me, YOU, every single one of you, is worth more than the whole world to God, and you're worth it to ME, too! Please, never give up hope. I did, for awhile, and it very nearly killed me. <P>So, if any of you ever get depressed and think nobody cares, just know that (whether you believe me when I say this or not) God cares, He cares enough to die for you, and also that *I* care, and you can always email me. I'd ask that you do that, if you don't feel that you can talk to anyone else, because, trust me, I can identify. I won't just say stuff to make you feel better, I mean every word that I say (minus the stupid things that may slip out when I'm in a bad mood), and I really have a passion to help people in any way I can. <P>I love you guys. <P>~Gloria~

i just lurk around the comic, havent really been here to the forum very much
but i know how you feel, tho i personally cant give you much advice. ive not told anyone iRL, only online friends and my LJ. ive never seen a psychologist for my depression, thats almost lead me to suicide. ive been through self mutilation, and ill tell you right now, even tho it may feel good because it helps distract from the pain inside, later, when yer not as down, and you see the slashes, you will regret it so much. and even more when later down the line they are still there as scars, a testament to your past you want to forget more than anything.
but like i said, i never told anyone sans online friends. and all they could do was worry about me, and tell me how much they would miss me. of course in my depressive state i figured they were just tryin to make me feel better, and would forget about me in a couple weeks.
then one of my online friends best online friend (follow that? Oo;; ) committed suicide, and she was torn apart over it, and i realized just how much i ment to some of them. still didnt stop the feelings tho<P>and unfortunatly even tho i got over them for a bit, they are back now<P>long story short, you shouldnt be angry at her, shes only thinking about how much you mean to her. i suggest maybe asking the psycologist if maybe the parents could stay out of it, because they most likely will overreact

*nods sadly* I think that a lot of people have had a time in their life that were really bad. My hardships aren't as bad as some people's, looking back. But my personality made them dangerous...<P>That comic is one of my favorites as well. Heh, always reminds me of how much I owe my best friend. If it hadn't been for him I may not be here right now. >.<<p>[This message has been edited by Rico Underwood (edited 12-18-2001).]

Wow. I'm so happy to have found people who know what I'm talking about. I've tried to talk to people at school and they think that I'm even more stupid then I really am. I don't think I'd ever be able to cut myself again. I understand what you're saying, WhiteWolf. It didn't hurt when I first tried it awhile back but then I accidently cut my arm and it hurt. I saw my blood and now I haven't been able to see my own blood without vomiting. I guess it's just me. I guess I do mean something to people. My boyfriend Eric has been a real big help through this all. I don't know what I'd do without him. Gloria, I'm not sure how I ever found your comic, I can't remember that far back, but I'm so very glad I did. Its (and you) have helped me with a lot and its (and you) have inspired me to draw a lot more then I used to. And drawing helps me express myself that I couldn't any other way. Thank you. Underwood (feels weird writing that to someone else), this is my favorite comic, too. I guess we have more in common then our name! I'm not a big Christian like I should be but I do believe God put me hear for some bizarre reason in this form and I'm going to search for whatever reason that is. I hope that someday I'll be able to inspire people through my art and make them happy. Thank you. Thanks to all of you. I'm glad I'm here today. <P>------------------
NiKkI tHe SuPeRbUnNy
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heh, maybe...<P>There's a lot of ideas in Untitled that I can identify with.

*smiles* Gosh, I'm so glad. Again, I'm so glad I've inspired you. <P>And really, I'm not surprised that you guys can identify with it. It's really just a record of feelings, thoughts, ideas, etc. from a person who is very much like yourselves. Why wouldn't you be able to idenitfy with it, eh? <P> <IMG SRC="http://www.keenspace.com/forums/smile.gif"> <P>Peace, guys.

Yeah, I know what you mean. I have been trying to find my true self, so I left my old group of friends and I got toghether with some new ones. You know what? It was just what I needed. My old friends depressed me, and these new friends are supportive and nice and actually get me a christmas gift and listen to me....
Sometimes you need to leave that wieght you thought was nessecary behind.

My friends have really supported me. From what they say I'm either getting better or I'm getting better at hiding what I really feel. I'm not sure which it is. I'm just glad that I'm able to make people laugh again. I haven't been able to do that in awhile. <P>I'm glad that I didn't do anything stupid or I wouldn't have been here to see the first snow of the year (here anyway). Yes, it's snowing so I'm going to go outside and raise my self-esteem by hitting the 12 year olds by the stop sign with slushy balls. Buh bye everyone.<P>And thanks.<P>------------------
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